For years I have neglected myself.
Putting the needs of others farther ahead in life’s race.
Lying to myself, believing that it was the right thing to do.
All the while struggling to keep up the pace.
The pace of caring deeply for others.
Hoping to receive some care in return.
Holding my hands out for someone to pull me up.
Only to play with the fire of others ill intentions which left me burned.
You teach others how to treat you they say.
But what about do unto to others as you would have them do to you.
Trying to take the high road and treat others with the utmost respect,
Has always been my view.
But as the years have moved on and the struggles increase.
Others continue to weigh me down.
No longer am I covered in smiles,
Rather I am stuck with a somewhat permanent frown.
But I have no one but myself to blame,
Because I have neglected the one person in the world who loves me best.
I have made it okay to use me up.
How can I expect them to give me more when I give me less?
Choices have to be made about who takes first place.
About who I make a definitive priority.
My condolences to those who are going to get left behind.
But today I am choosing me.