Workout complete!!! It took everything I had but I’m glad I got it in first thing! #bestrongerthanyourexcuses #21dayfix #cardiofix #21daystoanewme
How long are you going to let your past mistakes dictate your future? We all have done things we are not proud of. I’ll be the first to admit that I have made a number of missteps in my life and will continue to do so. I’m human and there is nothing wrong with that. The issues lies in never getting past those mistakes and never applying forgiveness to oneself.
Failing to forgive oneself manifests itself in a number of ways in our lives. For some if manifests through the choices of life partners they make. For others is manifests through the treatment they accept from others. For some it manifests in the way they handle their finances. Yet for others it manifests in the effort, or lack thereof, they put into their mental, emotional and physical well-being.
The point is you cannot heal if you cannot first forgive yourself. If you don’t you will feel held back and you won’t understand why. Mistakes bruise our minds and hearts but time and forgiveness heals. Just like you wouldn’t continue to pick at or repeatedly hit a bruised area on your physical body, you shouldn’t keep re-bruising your mind and your heart lamenting over things you did wrong in the past. Learn from your missteps and move on. And if you’re not willing to do this, then be willing to accept that what you have in this moment is likely all you will ever get.
Photo credit: http://buff.ly/28ZVPBN
I’m going to share mine. It was November 2005 and I was at the peak of life. My daughters were growing older and needed me less. I had just finished my B.S. in Legal Studies the year before and had a promising career in a corporate legal office. I was driven and knew I had so much more to offer so I decided I would take the LSAT (law school entrance exam) and go to law school. I had it all mapped out. And I did it. I sat for the test, received my scores and by February of 2006, I decided to apply to a local law school. Then came 10 pounds.
In March of 2006, I noticed I was overly tired for no reason. My usual anal retentive self started to be less organized and driven. Housework and chores started to slip. I just wanted to sleep. Then came 10 more pounds. In April I had my yearly gyn appointment and my doctor suggested I see a specialist about my ever growing thyroid. In my mind I was like “here we go again.” I had blood work done repeatedly and it always came back the same – normal. I told her I would think about.
In May, I received a new opportunity at another company with a 50% salary increase so I took it. While shopping for new clothes for my prestigious new role, another 10 pounds came. Wait…what is going on here???? Then I thought back to my conversation with my doctor and decided to move on her suggestion. I set up an appointment at a world-class teaching hospital but had to wait months to be seen. “No big deal” I thought. It’s nothing serious.
Fast forward to September – first visit with the endocrinologist. First the student examined me. Then the real professional came in. “Swallow” he said. “Hmph”, was his reply. Then he said he needed me to go for an ultrasound right away. He explained that he felt four nodules throughout my thyroid and that he needed to rule out something serious.
Now, I am a “cup half full” kind of girl so I sashayed my way to the radiology department to set up the appointment. A week later, I was laid flat on a table with a technician and radiologist looking at the pictures on the screen, making funny noises and talking about my nodules. It was all but confirmed that I had thyroid cancer but I would need to come back for a biopsy. Wait, what???
I won’t belabor the rest of the details but a week later I found out I had malignant papillary thyroid carcinoma and two weeks after that I had my thyroid removed. During the course of that ordeal, I had to stop and ask myself how I got to that point in my life. I reflected on all the things I may miss in my kids lives if it I couldn’t be treated. It was then that I slowly started to realize my why. Accepting it has been a struggle but I am finally at a place of sharing it and working with it. So here is my why:
Because I know what it feels like to waste precious moments not knowing if you will get any more chances to make memories and to leave a lasting impact on this world. My ability to help others feel good about themselves starts with me feeling good about myself.
So there you have it…that’s my why. It’s not flashy or over complicated but is meaningful to me. What’s yours?
Photo credit: http://buff.ly/28QQDOl
I am almost 10 years out from having thyroid cancer, yet this last year has been like the first. I have more half used bottles of medication than I care to have in my cabinet. I have wasted countless dollars on co-payments just so you can tell me “the dose I wrote the script for last time is no longer working so you’ll have to get another prescription filled?” Really??? Do you treat your other patients with the same lax level of care as you treat me?
Last week I came to you because I know my body and I know when it is off. After I weighed in considerably heavier than my visit several weeks back, you had the audacity to tell me my weight wasn’t that bad. How about you let me, my knees, lower back and the rest of my joints be the judge of that. Then you proceeded to pepper me with your standard list of questions about my eating habits, whether I worked out, and if I was taking my medicine on an empty stomach every morning 30 minutes before eating. Remember the part about being 10 years out??? I have been dealing with this for a long time so I am insulted when you insinuate that I am the reason why my body is betraying me yet again.
But I tried to give you the benefit of the doubt. I humbly asked to take you up on your offer to see a nutritionist who, by the way, can’t even see my until a month from now. You obliged all the while writing what you really thought in my chart. Guess you didn’t think I actually read the notes you put on my summary document because if you did, then you clearly wouldn’t have written “obesity due to excessive caloric intake.” Wait…what???? Did you even listen to me as I poured my heart out to you about all the other symptoms I am experiencing in addition to weight gain? The dry skin, increased anxiety, mood changes, sleeplessness, hoarseness, etc. Yeah, you halfheartedly ordered more blood work but your notes tell me you didn’t believe me. Your disbelief tells me you don’t really care.
I just wish you would be honest and tell me “I don’t know” or “I am at a loss for what to do for you.” I could respect that more. What I don’t respect is you not hearing me and you allowing your bias to assume that I am my problem. No, not having my thyroid anymore is the problem. The meds I have to take to keep my cancer away is the problem. You assuming that bad habits are contributing to my situation is the problem.
Well, in spite of all your training and medical degrees I decline to be subjected to your ego any further. You may be an expert in some things but you are by far no expert in me.
A Thyroid Cancer Survivor Who Has Had Enough.
Photo Credit: <a href=”http://www.flickr.com/photos/67923086@N02/6306512682″>02_2 free UseAsDirectedMedBottle</a> via <a href=”http://photopin.com”>photopin</a> <a href=”https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/2.0/”>(license)</a>
I’m a little late posting but wanted to circle back to share that I did successfully prep all of my food for the week. It was a long tedious process but oh so worth it. For anyone reluctant to invest the time and energy into doing, I say do it. the 3 hours spent on Sunday is saving me so much time during the week. It’s easier to stick to my eating plan and to spend less time in the kitchen and more time living!
Last week was a complete and total nutritional nightmare for one reason, and one reason only…I did not plan out my meals. I had to travel for business so I assumed my eating would be “off” so I gave no thought to planning how to stay on track. Bad, bad, bad I know. I reasoned that once I got home Wednesday I would resume my mindful eating habits only to find that my fridge was on the fritz so all of my healthy food – GONE!!! I don’t need to finish the rest of the story because we all know how it ends…with fast food too many calories and disappointment. Where is the willpower????
So this week I decided I wanted to get back to being deliberate about what I am putting in my body. As I was watching the latest episode of Fit to Fat to Fit, something the trainer said resonated with me. He hadn’t eaten “junk” in 22 years because he used food as fuel not as a reward or for satisfaction. Interesting???? I have heard that before but this time, it really resonated with me. Why? Because I noticed that lately, food has been my go to for everything! When I am having a bad day, I eat. When want to celebrate a professional accomplishment, I eat. When I feel like being lazy, eat. When I talk on the phone with my bestie, we talk about eating. Something has to change. I have to change.
So, I decided to make a small investment into changing. I ordered Pakkon 3 Compartment Bento Boxes. I like the fact that they have three compartments so I can choose to incorporate my fruits into a meal without having to worry about the savory parts of my meal messing up the taste. I also like the fact that they are stack-able so they should fit nicely in my fridge. Now all I have to do is plan out what to put in them and I will be well on my way with meal planning.
I have often heard the saying “Fail to plan, plan to fail.” I definitely lived that this week and am taking steps to make sure it doesn’t happen again. My health and well-being are very important and I am confident that I am headed in the right direction. More pics to come once I fill those boxes with healthy eats!
<a href=”http://www.flickr.com/photos/23837066@N07/24550301721″>fruits colors</a> via <a href=”http://photopin.com”>photopin</a> <a href=”https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/2.0/”>(license)</a>
In 2006 when I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer, I just knew that would be the push I would need to be more aware of my health and to make better decisions – eat healthier, work out more, etc. Fast forward to 10 years later and the struggle is still very real and my attempts to stay the course of being more mindful about my health and wellness have come and gone like the wind.
I corrupted my family too. Fatty fried foods, carbohydrate laden side dishes and no green vegetables on the plate unless they were cooked and smothered beyond recognition became the norm. But as they say, you can’t out exercise a poor diet and I am living proof of the trueness of that statement. Tired of being confused as to why I am exercising but not seeing results, I decided for once I was going to make a change.
So, I started drinking Shakeology. Best decision ever. Then I decided I would reboot by doing the 3 Day Refresh. The results were wonderful. After 3 days I was down 6 pounds and lost more than 5 inches total. I immediately followed the Refresh with 21 Day Fix and it was another great decision. I learned that with a little prep, eating right is possible. I also learned that you don’t have to spend hours in the gym every day to see results. Just a little consistency each day coupled with eating right and the results will come. But most importantly, I learned that the physical transformation is just the icing, the mental transformation…now that’s the cake.
Fast forward to today and I have more energy. I genuinely feel good in the mornings because I know I am taking positive steps to improve my health and well-being. For me, it’s not about a number on the scale. Rather it is about the personal satisfaction I get from knowing I am doing something for me and that this time, I am sticking to it.
So what about you? Are you tired of going through the same old routine and never seeing results? Are you looking for simple ways to improve your diet? Perhaps you struggle with meal planning and want someone to help guide you? If this sounds like you, please send me a private message so we can connect. I am hosting an accountability challenge starting Monday March 28 and I am looking for 5 people who are ready to make a commitment to improve their health and well-being. I promise to support you along the way. In fact, we will support each other. This is as much my journey as it is yours. Ask yourself – If not now, when? Send me an email at firstname.lastname@example.org if you are interested so we connect on how we can help each other.